a general update
My social anxiety fluctuates. I have a rash that flares up when I'm socially anxious. The weird thing is I didn't notice the rash until after my spikes in social anxiety. I suppose anxiety can manifest itself in all sorts of ways when it comes to the body.
I'm leaning towards changing my major towards philosophy. Psychology is more biologically technical than I would like and my university strongly focuses on experimental psychology which I think is foolish. There's much more to psychology than experimental psychology. Sociology I like but I'm just barely hanging on with a low B. Whereas in philosophy I'm getting A's and most people tend to struggle with philosophy. Career wise I rather major in psychology or sociology but they just don't seem to be my fortes. Philosophy is about reading, writing, and original thinking which is hard but I can do. That being said I don't want to teach philosophy or anything. I just want to use it as spring board for a masters in something involving government work.
I hate to say it but otherwise there's not much else going on in my life. It's kind of depressing to read other people's journals cause they usually have things going on in their life. As for me it's just the same thing as always.
Truth to be told I'm pretty depressed but I've gotten pretty good at faking it even with myself. I'd like to write it down as good coping skills but I honestly can't say I'm happy with life per say. It's kind of like a beggar getting used to just having his shopping cart and his place to sleep under the bridge. Complacent and lacking direction especially with no counselor right now. I don't know which is way is up. Things are at a dead draw in my battle against mental illness and life in general.
I'm leaning towards changing my major towards philosophy. Psychology is more biologically technical than I would like and my university strongly focuses on experimental psychology which I think is foolish. There's much more to psychology than experimental psychology. Sociology I like but I'm just barely hanging on with a low B. Whereas in philosophy I'm getting A's and most people tend to struggle with philosophy. Career wise I rather major in psychology or sociology but they just don't seem to be my fortes. Philosophy is about reading, writing, and original thinking which is hard but I can do. That being said I don't want to teach philosophy or anything. I just want to use it as spring board for a masters in something involving government work.
I hate to say it but otherwise there's not much else going on in my life. It's kind of depressing to read other people's journals cause they usually have things going on in their life. As for me it's just the same thing as always.
Truth to be told I'm pretty depressed but I've gotten pretty good at faking it even with myself. I'd like to write it down as good coping skills but I honestly can't say I'm happy with life per say. It's kind of like a beggar getting used to just having his shopping cart and his place to sleep under the bridge. Complacent and lacking direction especially with no counselor right now. I don't know which is way is up. Things are at a dead draw in my battle against mental illness and life in general.