finally, i am starting to feel things level out. i don't feel like i'm in a constant uphill climb. it hasn't been all bad though. i have really found myself amidst this mess...well, i have come to remember who i truly am and why i am who i am. i give to others because i want to--compassion is a gift, not a request for reciprocation. if you are ( Read more... )

i have to meet with the dean of student affairs tomorrow....

....i have a feeling this is not going to end well...

i have no idea what to do for some of this.

update:

good news:
both stable.
j on and off the vent.

bad news:
still awaiting diagnosis.
not sure why the lack of response to antibiotics.

me:
on spring break, just sleeping a lot.
lots of headaches lately.
trying to keep from being super stressed.

status update:

things are still up in the air. i feel as though we're in a holding pattern right now. it is just one day at a time. so i guess we just have to wait and see.

long story short:

-mom and jonathan both in the hospital
-she's relatively stable
-he's in ICU sedated and on life support
-mal, em, and i....well we'll see how we are as time passes....

i feel like i am just constantly cranky and in a bad mood.

somehow i need to turn this frown upside down.

i have been contemplating posting for awhile, but without having any sort of direction for a profound posting i have found myself simply saying nothing. i hate wasting other people's time with the mundane day to day happenings in my life, but i suppose it is a collection of these trivial moments that amount to make me who i am ( Read more... )

it is friday night. the pistons just won their 11th in a row by defeating the raptors. i am still in michigan. class started yesterday, and i was going to head back to chicago on wednesday. then, i realized that i only had one class on thursday, and well, i don't take friday classes, so i skipped the one class and have been hanging around at ( Read more... )

oh john mayer....it is a beautiful tragedy the way you force me to remember. does life ever really move on? does it ever really go full circle? i wish things would either change or go back to what they were. right now, i just feel caught somewhere inbetween. (the better part is the way that you seem to not be trapped in this liminal state ( Read more... )