I've decided now that it wont ever end will it? There will always be something torturing me. Awesome. I don't know why I bother with "relationships". This time, however, I have retracted from the word. But it feels remarkably the same... I shall retract from the boy and any further physical or emotional contact with him that is not purely ( Read more... )

once again.. two years it has been. I am 20 now. I have moved out. I have a cat named pistol. and I still have my turtley turtle. I have a bomb roommate and I hate everything more than i have ever hated anything. :) I finally met henry, we are in loev. Well.. about as much in love as two damaged people who live a thousand miles apart will allow. I ( Read more... )

Eric and I booked our vacation!!! May 29 - june 5.
HELL YES.

Thats.... thats pretty much all I have to say.
haha

I really havent felt stressed out in a while. I'm pretty happy. I'm taking 4 classes.. working 4 times a week. making my payments on time. etc. and i couldnt be happier. I'm absolutely in love with eric as well. its been nearly a year and... 4 months.. i think. I'm so happy.
we've decided on changing up the furniture in his house a bit. instead of ( Read more... )

.... where do I start? Its been too long. I'll start all over. I'm practically married. Usually very happy. I work at famous daves as a server. I make enough money to pay for my car and other such exciting things. My bffs include dD Krista Colin Eric Erich Justin and D. I like tattoos and piercings and music and art and MONEY.
Thats pretty much all ( Read more... )

I dont know who I am or who I want to be ( Read more... )

Its true. there has been a great deal of time inbetween the last entry and this one. Who reads this? it doesnt matter. Turns out Steve cheated on me while he was in London. He fucked another girl. I was heart broken. More so than ever. I'm over it now. I met a boy.. Mike.. He and I didnt work out. I decided to take a break. I started partying a lot ( Read more... )

Well Steve broke up with me yesterday. It really hurt. I really wasnt expecting it. Whatever.. I guess everything happens for a reason. I wonder how many more break ups I can handle until I crack.. probably not many more. So I guess I'll just keep myself from relationships as much as I can. They're not worth it.. they really arent. I need a new ( Read more... )

So I lost my cell phone. No big deal I guess. I'm doing just fine without it. I've been pretty down lately.
and I miss colin a lot. he's still my best friend. Even though he's on the other side of the country. I'm worried about school a lot. I'm pretty stressed out. I'll be okay though. everything always ends up alright.
I need to get out of here.

Things are better. I'm happy again. Really happy. Its pretty rainy outside. So im just hanging out with myself for right now. Steve is at work.. I'm probably going to bug him when he gets off. Oh, and I DO have enough money to pay my mom back. and I got an extra 44 dollars in doing it because I told her she owed me for not paying me for lunch. And ( Read more... )