time alone. - a place of my own. - I'm lost at sea you see

[skaluver]

Its true. there has been a great deal of time inbetween the last entry and this one. Who reads this? it doesnt matter. Turns out Steve cheated on me while he was in London. He fucked another girl. I was heart broken. More so than ever. I'm over it now. I met a boy.. Mike.. He and I didnt work out. I decided to take a break. I started partying a lot more than ever. Going to Jasons house. I met a guy there.. his name is Eric. I fell in love with him sort of. After getting close to him I found out he's moving to arizona. I was torn. Absolutely torn. I couldnt believe it. I went to a halloween party at jasons house and met a boy... Guillermo. He was dressed as a rudeboy. and me... I was a cop. I walked right up to him and asked him if I could have a picture with him.  Not many people have a picture of the exact moment they met. he and I do. Since then we've been hanging out constantly. He and I are boyfriend/girlfriend. I'm not sure if its the right choice.. because I hate getting hurt. But I think this is good. He and I, we fit together like puzzle pieces (in the sky). Postal service. 
I bought a new car... a 2007 chevy aveo. Yeah. I'm a baller. I make a lot of money with my new job.. delivering pizzas at giordanos.... its nice.
"got a taste of you, threw up all night"
I lost my cat. He was hit by a car. I havent cried so much in a while. the last time I cried like that was the last time I decided it was a good idea to die.
I'm graduating early. december 22.
I've gotten into painting. its fantastic. I love to paint now. 
I live in Aurora with my dad. Thanksgiving is tomorrow. I'm not really looking forward to it to be perfectly honest.
"shakin like a dog shitting razor blades"
I realized today how many terrible drivers there are. Guillermo exprienced this with me. 
I think I'm done here.