My past is haunting me again. At one point I was so stunningly brilliant and happy and now I feel slightly lost and confused. I hate seperation and 2,000 miles its a long fucking way away ( Read more... )

Everyone always asked me what I would do if he ever came back. If I ever saw him again. I knew exactly what I wanted to say but never had a clear idea about how I would react physically or if I would even have the balls to say a thing or if I would go overboard and ape shit and slap the hell out of him. I envisioned that day many times and atleast ( Read more... )

i am experimenting with livejournal mobile.

Incase you didn't know things are completely different than they were like.. 4, 5 years ago when I last posted an entry. I can't believe this thing still exists, actually ( Read more... )

In case you didn't know, my brother has been in and out of ICU with prancrititus(or whatever the fuck) since he turned 30 on April 2nd. Its been so touch and go and its the worst case of the situation most folks have ever seen and one day John is doing well and headed towards recovery and the next day he is dying again ( Read more... )

so, i spent some time with a cowboy. hell, i'm still spending, wasting, watching the world pass on with a drunken cowboy by my side. i enjoy his company but the banter is unbelievable and his drunkness wears off on me. but, the sex is good and i know he loves me. no, i don't love him. but, the idea of having someone love you with big brown eyes is ( Read more... )

The reality of this entire situation is, basically, easily described in two simple statements ( Read more... )

My life has been ridiculous. I spent an awesome weekend in Chattanooga with my severely awesome boyfriend's awesome family. Whatever. I keep shitting on our relationship, his heart, and my dignity. Fuck this.
I just wonder how I became to be such a fucked up bitch.

So, brace yourself ( Read more... )

I suppose these things will work out for the best.