ride in a hot air balloon
picnic with a bottle of wine and a big floppy sun hat once a week
go boating 
do well in school
work and love working
take a million pictures then take a million more
take i70 straight to maryland 
sony a350 and a new kick
pay rent
paint my house
finally make it to the top of mother cabrini
stay in a fantasuite
watch all the seasons ( Read more... )

 this summer i'm getting in my car and i'm not looking back. 
i'll follow the highway until it dead ends at the ocean.
i'm going find myself lost in annapolis
running through the sand with my big sun hat and a picnic basket in hand,
fall asleep in the passengers seat. 
remembering the days, forgetting the rest.

this highway 5 minutes from where i live ( Read more... )

 i like seeing jared in dreams ( Read more... )

 i remember it was a night much like tonight, except just rain.  the rocket summer was in the cd player, sitting in the back seat. valentines day. the hours and hours we had spent on the phone for the weeks prior, the first time anyone has ever asked me to be their valentine. our first date. i put my hand out in the space between us because i ( Read more... )

 I quit my job because I got a new job ( Read more... )

 all i want for christmas is this..


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 i now see exactly the life that i hope to never have, and that mine really is okay.
i'm happy my sister is happy, but
white picket fences
golden retriever puppies
boat shoes khaki pants and cable knit sweaters
forced conversations
weekend fishing trips
summer homes
talking football
all makes my family happy, but that is not for me.
my family will never ( Read more... )

 ERIN WISHES SHE WAS JUST A LITTLE BIT STRONGER. 

 maybe the things we go through, aren't always about karma, but a test, a means to make you stronger. i feel stronger now. and finally i feel like these changes are going to bring about a few more reasons to smile. i'm ready for it ( Read more... )

 my throat hurts from smoking too much last night. to many puffs off that cuban cigar.
i am so tired. so so tired.
hide and seek in the alley. sick as shit, with a capital S. camo high life. zach scottie rachel rawr for a minute johnny. ohhh my head
and all i can do is thank my lucky stars
5 in the morning
82 in a 55.........
i could have been in jail. i ( Read more... )