zachariah joseph crowell ( Read more... )

i'm sabotaging myself, setting myself up for failure in the things that matter most. and yet i'm doing nothing about it. all i want to do is get some sleep.

 i've got so many pretty things i'd like to paint on my body, that i constantly look at
i just don't have the money nor the time.
one day.

 "hold your head up high honey, things are never that bad ( Read more... )

to see the good in what you do.
i work so hard, and have nothing to show for it.
and each time i feel this way i stop caring and things fall to pieces.
i'd like to see a positive outcome of all my doings now...
not in 10 years.

i get my first paycheck on friday!.....
and i get to keep about $20 dollars of it....  

to wish for things to be as they once were. things will never be the same. we must either adopt the present, or turn and leave and create your own. I fell like a fool these days. How can the things that make me happy be so simple, so small, yet so distant. i long for him to touch the small of my back even for a second more than most things. to push ( Read more... )

money is ruining my life.
there is so much i want and want to do.
and now that i'm working,
i still can't do all those things
because i'm too busy catching up from
not working.
nothing but work and school
and what do i have to show for it?
mmmmmm
an empty wallet and a boring life.
i long for the day that i can say i'm caught up on my bills,
my credit ( Read more... )

 we all have moments of weakness. and i'm okay with that. as long as the rest of my days are filled with smiles. and i am content. 
i had always been so sure of what my future was going to be.
my future with him.
but for the first time i'm not so sure.
and for the first time i'm okay with that. 
i'm just going to let love take its coarse. 
for better or ( Read more... )

 i promised myself forgiveness, for myself and others.
only forgiveness is proving to be quite tricky.
letting go is proving to be seemingly impossible.

 r.i.p. jared seader 
01.01.08