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Dec 08, 2008 21:07

 i remember it was a night much like tonight, except just rain.  the rocket summer was in the cd player, sitting in the back seat. valentines day. the hours and hours we had spent on the phone for the weeks prior, the first time anyone has ever asked me to be their valentine. our first date. i put my hand out in the space between us because i wanted so badly to hold hands, but being to shy i just laid it there and watched the rain hit my window smiling thinking. i hate scary movies, but later sitting underneath the blankets on the leather couch, i just felt okay. we held hands. the first time we ever held hands. i couldn't even focus on the screams and blood on the screen in front of me. ohh i had such butterflies, i smiled until i finally fell asleep that night.

such young love. how much we've grown.

all the things that has happened. as i was driving tonight, the lights on the trees a blur quite streets the snow hitting my windshield, well its just nice to remember that once things were okay. remember those first butterflies, staying up until my mom yelled at me on the phone talking for hours about nothing, hiding in my closet to escape into my favorite place with him.

sometimes through the good and through the bad, well maybe youre just stuck with this certain person, and maybe instead of fighting it and looking for something better, looking to grow. well maybe you need to grow with that person. i think i'm stuck. and maybe thats okay with me.

he stopped me after i finally found him, stopped me right in the middle of the street. kneeled down. i was worried about the cars. and he said they can wait, we are more important, and we escaped into the night to our favorite place. as tired as i am of living off of hope, maybe i just need to find a little more strength, a little more hope. hope that things can be okay again. stick it out with my stuck on boy. 
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