emotion????

[siri_mon]

Hmm, so after telling my mom about China, I mentioned to her stuff that happened with my roomate. Yeah, did not expect my mom to yell at me for letting people walk all over me. I wasn't too aggravated about her yelling at me for that, because even my friends yell at me for lacking a spine (yeah Ana, so when are you going to give me my bitch lessons

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I don't know if you want to hear any of this or not

[unmerited_grace]

I very rarely read long journal entries.
This one, for some reason, appealed to me.

Siri, while I agree that you should not allow people to walk all over you, I think the people who DO take advantage of you need to own up. The people yelling at you also need to learn that some people just can NOT be yelled at -- it doesn't work for them. Gaurav, for instance. If you yell at him, he flips out and things get worse. If you calmly explain that SAME message, he fixes it.
Don't take bitch lessons. We don't need the competition ;p But seriously, you don't want to be like that, look at all the problems bitches face, and they are SO very public.
The unemotion towards your parents, I think I best stay silent -- I'm like your brother.
You have every right to cry. Or not. It's up to you. No one should criticize your decision regarding that kind of a personal moment.

Re: I don't know if you want to hear any of this or not

[siri_mon]

Referring to the people who do take advantage of my spinelessness, I love how some of them usually are the same people who tell me I'm spineless....

hmm.

[dripdropdead]

my mom says im "intolerant" of emotions. my sister calls me "apathetic." im almost proud of that. id rather be detatched than burden other people with my emotions. i liked this entry.

Re: hmm.

[siri_mon]

I completely agree, I'd also rather be detatched than burden other people with my emotions and problems. I mean, come on, who wants to listen to other people's problems (minus myself of course, rofl).

[jack_cole]

we need a day in a practice room again. tomorrow. be there or be square.

i heart you.

staley is so screwed for next year...we're gonna cause a riot. kind of like the song!

[siri_mon]

Haha, we ended up having a practice room day today, but the Schlipp thing totally threw us off and took up our entire conversation.

But OH MAN, next year will be amazing, Wind Ensemble won't ever be the same :P

[jack_cole]

OH MY FUCKING GOD.

i'm still in denial, but kind of progressing through anger and depression...but yet still in denial. what tha hell.

arghghhghygh.

[siri_mon]

You improving yet?

[trumpet_chick13]

So, it's kinda late, but my LJ wasn't working. Oh well.

You don't necessarily have to "burden" everyone you meet in the hallways with your problems and insecurities. Pick a few people that you trust the most - you know who they are - and tell them. If you trust them that much, they will undoubtedly trust you back, since more people trust you than you trust them. And if you have a mutual trust, then they probably won't see it as you "burdening" them, but as them helping you sort through your problems. Because like you - and half the world - said (/says), sometimes just talking through (or writing in a blog, rofl) can help you sort all your problems out. Unfortunately, I can't sit in a practice room with you, but you can always come and vent to me (which you rarely ever do). :O

[siri_mon]

*hugs* /me will come and vent to you when needed. And you know you can come to me anytime you need to vent too.

[trumpet_chick13]

Haha, but "when needed" means something different in your mind than in most other people's. :P But yay, /me likes being trusted. *hughug* Haha, you already know too well that I vent at you. :P *duct tapes mouth shut*

[siri_mon]

You vent AT me? Haha.

"When needed"...hmmm...sometimes the words don't come out of my mouth when I want to vent. Kinda hard to explain. I want to vent, but I can't, the whole stupid trust issue I have still stops me from saying anything, that, and the whole "burdening people with my problems" thing. *shrug*