Well how's your view of things today
Who: Sora ( lockandkeyblade ) and Xion (mirroredmemory )
When: September 16 - Afternoon
Where: At a park, near playground somewhere in the city.
Summary: Takes place shortly after this thread. Sora adds another name to the list of friends he won't be meeting again back home.
Warnings: Generous doses of sad 8<.
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When: September 16 - Afternoon
Where: At a park, near playground somewhere in the city.
Summary: Takes place shortly after this thread. Sora adds another name to the list of friends he won't be meeting again back home.
Warnings: Generous doses of sad 8<.
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It's terrible that she's gone again. Xion can't stand the thought of Ven being so unhappy, or Terra. It's so hard to lose a friend, to feel lost without them around. She knows all too well after all. Even so, feeling so sad for her friends while feeling so happy herself to have Axel back is oddly conflicting. She woke up today knowing that she could see both her best friends if she wanted to. Ven doesn't have that anymore. It's not fair.
Perhaps she should ask Sora about what she should do.
She sees him in the park and a small smile breaks on her face. Something about talking to that boy always makes her feel better.]
Sora!
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Why is he so surprised? He knows everything... doesn't he?]
They wanted me to make him a part of me. They wanted Roxas gone, they couldn't control him anymore.
That's why I had to lose when Xemnas made me fight him. It was the only way I could keep him safe. I couldn't kill him, I love him. It was the only way.
[Her voice trails off, catching slightly.]
I just wish he didn't have to remember.
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[No, Xion. That's wrong. That's not what Roxas said. That's not what he said at all. Roxas never mentioned anything like that.]
[On the surface, he's still speaking quietly. Why would she even say that?]
Xemnas killed you.
Not Roxas.
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And now, now she feels awful, because it feels like a betrayal. She can't just come out and say it like that, it wasn't like that, he didn't want to, he never wanted to.
But he did.
And Xion can't skirt around that.
And she made him.]
He... he never wanted to. He never would have, but... I didn't-
[Her throat feels tight.]
There were machines, Xemnas put me in them... and he wanted me to absorb him so I had to pretend-
He would have died if I hadn't.
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[But he can't believe it- that's too horrible.]
Who knows what they're gonna do to you! -- I think I know them a lot better than you do.
And I don't need anyone to protect me anymore.
I'm just glad she has the chance.
I can't protect anyone.
[And one final thought is the last nail in the coffin.]
I can't just assume everything's gonna be all right because sometimes it isn't. Not everyone gets a happy ending.
[Roxas...]
[He hadn't been hiding it. He'd been telling Sora all along, hadn't he? It was in the way the way he treated Xion, the way he carried himself, the way he was. It was in the words he didn't say that told Sora everything.]
[This is too much.]
[His heart's so heavy, he can't stand it.]
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She takes a deep breath, contemplates what to say next... but somehow she can't find any words.
This isn't what she wanted, she didn't want anyone to feel sorry for her. She wanted it to end on her terms, and it was selfish that she had to have Roxas do it but when she thinks back on how she died, how it happened and how as she went she was with Roxas but he wasn't hurting, it was right. She hates that he's remembered, that he feels the pain of it that she never thought he would.
But she didn't die alone. She died in her favourite place, with her favourite person there beside her, and her last thoughts were that everything was going to be alright.
Only now, with Sora's stunned horror, she thinks maybe it can't be as simple as she thought it was in those final, precious moments.]
It wasn't his fault.
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Not at all.
[He couldn't blame Roxas. Not when he knows who's really at fault. He doesn't know what to feel. He can't imagine what Roxas felt, either. If he'd had to hurt Riku or Kairi, he'd never forgive himself.]
That's just ... way too sad.
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[Xion sighs and gets up off her swing, but she doesn't let go of the chain.]
He didn't know who I was in the end. He had already forgotten me when I died. That's why Axel doesn't remember me anymore; when someone who's made out of memories goes away, so do the memories of them.
[She doesn't know that in the end... it had all come back. She was already gone by then.
She looks over at Sora and offers him a smile.]
But... it's alright. I hate how it happened, but it was my choice, in the end. And... Roxas and I get to be together, we're together right now, here and back home. Roxas... doesn't understand that yet.
We live in you, Sora. Even if no one remembers me, I'm always with Roxas. I wish that things could be different and we could all really be together, but I'm always going to be with my best friend. Always.
And we'll both be with you.
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[Sora quietly places a hand over his chest, feeling the steady beat of his heart, realizing that it isn't just his.]
[It doesn't make things right. There's still a whole world of things wrong what what happened. Roxas still doesn't want to go back to him. He never did. Xion had no choice but to disappear, and the way she did was nothing short of devastating. So even hearing all this from Xion still doesn't clear away massive knot of complicated feelings. It still hurts.]
[But it makes it better.]
[Because Xion and Roxas exist somewhere. When he goes back, he'll be carrying something precious, even if he doesn't know he is.]
[And maybe one day... he'll find a way to fix things. Somehow.]
Xion...
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She just hopes he was as at peace with it as she was.
Xion wanders over to Sora's swing and stands just before him, then tentatively puts her hand on his on his chest.]
You can't be sad, okay? I'm where I belong. And maybe one day when you really, really want ice cream it'll be because I want ice cream.
[She doesn't know if it works that way, doesn't know if she'll have any sway on anyone, on Roxas or on Sora, but she can hope.
She remembers something he told her once, months ago, back when he was new and she still didn't really know her way around him. He'd been telling her how to make a certain cake:
"But there's one very important thing you can't forget no matter what ( ... )
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I'll make it when I get home. For all of us.
[With candy hearts, and chocolate kisses, and strawberry frosting, and her favorite gummies.]
It'll be the best.
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But until then... we can get together here and have rootbeer floats whenever we want, right?
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She's never hugged him before, so when she wraps her arms around him and does so she hopes he won't mind or think it's weird.]
Right.
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[They remain like that for another few moments, just up until Sora makes one last wipe at his cheek while Xion cant see (she probably knows anyway) and then he finally steps back.]
... Thanks Xion.
[For everything.]
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But she won't tell him that now. Something tells her it's not the right time.
Instead she just smiles and shakes her head.]
Silly. Thank you.
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