Well how's your view of things today

[lockandkeyblade]

Who: Sora ( lockandkeyblade ) and Xion (mirroredmemory )
When: September 16 - Afternoon
Where: At a park, near playground somewhere in the city.
Summary: Takes place shortly after this thread. Sora adds another name to the list of friends he won't be meeting again back home.
Warnings: Generous doses of sad 8<.

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[mirroredmemory]

[It's a surprise to Xion when Sora calls her on her NV asking her to come and hang out. She agrees happily; her shift is done and she hadn't got anything else planned for her afternoon. She's going to take some food over to Ven and Terra and try to help them get their minds off Aqua's disappearance.

It's terrible that she's gone again. Xion can't stand the thought of Ven being so unhappy, or Terra. It's so hard to lose a friend, to feel lost without them around. She knows all too well after all. Even so, feeling so sad for her friends while feeling so happy herself to have Axel back is oddly conflicting. She woke up today knowing that she could see both her best friends if she wanted to. Ven doesn't have that anymore. It's not fair.

Perhaps she should ask Sora about what she should do.

She sees him in the park and a small smile breaks on her face. Something about talking to that boy always makes her feel better.]

Sora!

[lockandkeyblade]

[It's easy to get caught up in the moment- Sora and Xion end up grinning at each other as they both break out into a run. Each of them takes a hold of the chains and steps back to start the game, Sora just behind Xion by a second.]

[But Sora never quite makes it, never starts the first swing - His easygoing smile fades a little.]

Actually, Xion.

... Could we talk?

[mirroredmemory]

[Xion's still laughing happily as the swing starts its cycle; she doesn't notice that Sora hasn't left the ground until he speaks, and she stops actively making her swing swing as she turns to him.]

Silly, that's what we're doing isn't it?

[lockandkeyblade]

[Sora just shakes his head. She looks so carefree right now, he hates to ruin it. She looks so alive, and so happy right now - it's hard to believe that Siren's Port is the only place she can be that way.]

I mean about serious stuff.

[mirroredmemory]

[That doesn't sound good.

Xion lets her feet drag on the ground, stopping her swing suddenly. He sounds worried, and that's enough to worry her.]

What's wrong? Are you okay?

[lockandkeyblade]

I'm fine. You don't have to worry about me.

[He settles down comfortably in the swing. He'd rather they both be sitting down for this.]

Before I called you today, I met up with Roxas. Turns out he had a lot of important things to say. Stuff he couldn't say before because I wasn't ready.

[mirroredmemory]

You did?

[She tucks her hair behind her ear for a moment as she looks at him. He looks so serious; it's at odds with how lively and happy he always seems to her.]

What did you talk to him about? You didn't fight did you?

[lockandkeyblade]

No. No fighting.

[If only. Fighting's much better than this. He'd take arguing any day.]

[He wonders how he missed it. He never would have known it looking at her or Roxas.]

We talked about you, actually.

[mirroredmemory]

About me?

[She blinks for a moment, then her face falls. There's only one thing about her, she reasons, that could cause Sora to look so serious.

For a moment she thinks, and then she looks at him calmly.]

I thought you knew.

[lockandkeyblade]

[Sora shakes his head.] Some things I knew.

But Roxas-- he told me about... what happens to you.

[Sora breaks the eye contact, eyes forward and a little distant.]

It's funny...

I always thought you were out there somewhere. That when I went back home, we'd meet again.

[mirroredmemory]

[Xion's quiet there for a moment, then she slowly rocks her swing back and forth, just barely, swaying in the silence like a cobweb caught in a breeze.

She doesn't look at Sora when she speaks again, her eyes are on her lap.]

If I was still out there... you never would have woken up. But-

[She folds her hands in her lap.]

I did want to meet you, you know. So... I guess everything worked out, in the end.

[lockandkeyblade]

[Sora raises his head, and looks back at Xion. She sounds strangely detached talking about her own death and its just... it feels wrong. Sora shakes his head. No way. He doesn't think things have worked out at all.]

[Maybe it had to happen, and maybe what Roxas said about Xion needing to go back to him was right. But there could have been another way if they could've just looked for it. If only the Organization hadn't got to her first...]

But it's not fair- not for you and Roxas.

You deserve to be happy too.

[And... alive.]

[mirroredmemory]

But I am happy. I'm here now and I get the chance to have a life, a real life. I never really had that before I came here.

[She looks at him then, and offers him a slight, sad smile.]

It wasn't fair. It wasn't fair at all. And if I could go back and change it, I would do, but I wouldn't change what happened to me in the end.

It was me or Roxas, and I couldn't let them kill him. It had to be me. I just wish he didn't have to remember that part, that's the worst thing about him remembering everything.

[lockandkeyblade]

[And Xion does seem happy. She's not angry or hurt -- just a little sad. She should be feeling so much, but she's not.]

[He remembers Roxas-- closed off. Cold. Detached. All Sora can think about is watching his back, watching his form gets smaller the father down the beach he walks.]

[He knows it must've been devastating for both of them. But sometimes, being on the other end of quiet acceptance when he knows something is wrong and unfair, it's... it's frustrating. So why?]

I don't get it. If that were me and Riku, or me and Kairi, I'd...

[He stands from the swing abruptly. It's impossible not to feel anything.]

Aren't you guys mad?! If it weren't for the Organization...

[mirroredmemory]

I was mad. For a little while at first, when I found out the truth about what I am.

[Xion takes it upon herself to finish his sentence for him.]

If it weren't for the Organization I would never have existed at all. And if it were up to them, I would still be collecting hearts and helping Xemnas get his way.

[She scuffs the toes of her sneakers in the woodchip beneath the swing.]

Kingdom Hearts would be complete. You would never have woken up and Roxas would be the one who died, not me. I would have been their puppet forever, and I would have killed my best friend.

It was what I wanted Sora. It's okay.

[lockandkeyblade]

But Xion -

[Sora just stands there, head shaking unconsciously throughout the entire thing. But she died and Roxas had to watch it all. All because Xemnas-]

would have killed my best friend

[Everything just shuts down. His blood just runs cold.]

[What she said. That sounds like...]

[His voice sounds hollow to his ears. It sounds small.]

You would have... what?