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The French and Irish
I'm at home and I'm thinking of you
I don't hate you for having gone, but I'm not happy about it
It's funny how so much can change over the course of one day
How a simple act, so basic and instinctive, can cause such a wealth of conversations,
feelings, thoughts, changes
I didn't let myself think about these things until this morning.
My head is a mess
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Boys and Busses
Something I wrote last night.
It sort of helped me figure out where I am, but more than that it's voiced my fears and feelings about where I am.
It was something I needed to write anyway.
The first of many pieces after a long dry patch.
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That Dinner Party
It sounds to cheap and meaningless to say
I love you
but I do,
despite how I treat you sometimes.
And it's not enough for me to say
"I'm learning"
and
"I'll get better"
because I've put you through this before.
I just hope you know that I don't mean to hurt you at all,
and that even though my issues don't excuse it,
they at least explain my behaviour.
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Sam
I miss you like crazy
and it's silly,
because I don't know you well enough to miss you like this.
I just want to be with you so badly.
It's like I picked you,
we picked each other,
at just the right time
but the wrong time.
It's not even like I love you yet,
but I know I will.
You're so much better than the others.
But you're not here and it's driving ( Read more... ) -
Impregnation
I asked everyone if they wanted to come and congratulate you in person but they we're and keen as I was.
Then I creid because I felt you needed to know how happy we are for you.
But it wasn't your need to be told, it wa my need to tell you.
Then I was upset because I don't want it to be my need.
And I don't really know why.
I think I'm scared to ( Read more... ) -
(Untitled)
It's been a while
To be honest I don't really have much to day today.
My life: wake up, work, eat, work, eat while pretending to work, play with hair, think of people who probably aren't thinking of me, work a bit more, text that hot boy in Wales, miss him, make mental notes, perhaps go out, work some more, eat, go to sleep.
What fun.
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You say you're on your own, but that's because you've turned your back on the world.
I refuse to pity you.
Don't involve me in your life because I'm not in it anymore.
I know you think you need to talk,
but all you want is an excuse to not change.
Yes life is hard, but it's as hard or as easy as you make it.
If you're scared then admit it;
Face it and conquer it.
This may sound insensitive but I know how it feels to wish you were ( Read more... ) -
I really should be working right now...
It's been a while.
My life continues on an even kilter I suppose.
Well not really, but nothing dramatic has happened lately so I can hardly complain.
Maybe by the summer I'll be done with this ruitine.
[Who knows]
Summer Love
Dancing in the summer rain
I feel my life is whole again.
Hold my hand; I’ll kiss your face,
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After Dinner
What am I doing?
seriously
What?
I like G.
Its the way you look at me,
you have to stop doing that if you don't mean it.
You're so hard to read.
I don't get what makes me like you,
I think it's the way you look at me.
And the fact that you're so relaxed,
and witty.
ugh
I had such a good week in Oxford,
met the most amazing people.
Stewart; hot and ( Read more... ) -
Ravetime
( I had to get this out there...I hope it makes sense)
Does that explain things a little better?
I still feel a bit shit.
yuk
x