Over. And Out.

I can't stand to read old entries. I look back and ask myself what i thought was right. I would take the worst of pains, over and over and over again, if it took away what I made you feel. I just hope you know that everything I ever did or said to lift you up was the god's honest truth, You are the most beautiful girl I know, you are sexy beyond my ( Read more... )

That shit took FOREVER! Just over an hour because of this sites shittyness! Oh well, its all taken care of and i can go to sleep happy. Brittney Powers, I love you. And fuck i got tired of ready "man i miss cory" and "cry bitch moan" fuck! haha, i want to kick the shit out of me after all that! hahahaha fish eyed foo' 

You know, it's odd how things are. with the girlfriend having doubts again, work being slow, and not having a life has really takin it's toll on me. I mean, i feel that my life kinda sucks right now (if I'm even accurate on my life so far). Although it may be from my pathetic attempt at rejoining the world with Jonathan and friends at a show i ( Read more... )

This is going to be so hard. You just left. It was great to see you this morning, but as i woke up all i could think of was you and steven or you and jacob....

I dont even know what else to say...

I miss my girlfriend :'( i miss talking to her. I miss seeing her. I just miss her. I love her so much but everything has to be so fucked up right now. I cant even be home for a few minutes without my parents telling me how the need to pay the bills and they need my money and truck to do so. And with all the complications lately between me and brit ( Read more... )

i just hope i dont make you feel cheap :( I love you more than anything i really dont want you to get the impression otherwise. I love you. with all my heart :)

I honestly dont know where else to go. I getting real fed up with owing my WHOLE goddamn life to everyone and being stomped on when the suprise comes when i come up short. Is that how the rest of my life is gonna be? Me aiming for bigger things and getting pulled back because i cant do it? I'm tired of working all day and all night. I dont want to ( Read more... )

I didn't know where else to go. I could lie to myself as i always do and say that no one reads this thing (which may be true now) but i know who reads this, and she's all that matters ( Read more... )

Ok, so this stress has been building in my head but i need to vent somewhere and i dont feel as guilty sharing my thoughts with a faceless journal that no one reads, except for one person...whom i kinda hope doesnt have to read all my crap, but i can only pray, i guess. So anyhow, the past week or so have been beyond shitty. I cant even describe ( Read more... )