God, now I have to fucking count them - the communication journal entries. There's a journal check this week. I think it's supposed to be like four entries minimum per week. My inner Gremlin sounds like my son, stomping around pitching a fit about quantity and quality. Reminds me of his rant after I found out he'd lost his retainer. He fixated on ( Read more... )

So in my communication class last night, I checked in with the same stuff running around my not feeling safe, feeling irritated, disappointed, blah blah. And we decided to speak one-on-one during the break. It was such a relief to tell her what I was observing both in her behavior and (most importantly) with regard to my reactions, thoughts, ( Read more... )

Just noticing my Gremlin thoughts this morning. Calmly getting a bead on the beast. Seductive, two-faced, argumentative, distressing, defeat-oriented, panic-inducing. Stronger, fierce, very convincingly energized messages include ( Read more... )

So I walked this morning. ALWAYS a good way to start the day when I can walk with my tunes. Had some thoughts on the effective communication class and the paper due this week. Content is coming in blibs and blurbs. I need to write about my "bullshit meter". Also need to start the paper with something that essentially says that my communication ( Read more... )

That teacher still pings my buttons. And, I am learning. So, underneath ANGER is always something else... usually disappointment. Interesting. My paradigm is that when I don't get what I want (and that want usually involves significant emotional investment), I feel angry. But BEFORE the anger is disappointment. So, I feel disappointed that the ( Read more... )

More on the whole communication thing. So, I noticed that I go on autopilot when listening to some folks who start talking about their history. For example, a woman I know was taking about her history and how her dad often abandoned her in various ways (including just forgetting to pick her up at the airport when she flew across country at the age ( Read more... )

( Observations in class last night )

Well, I showed up for the program overview session yesterday. Ditched out of part of a group meeting to get there. Not that I am sorry to miss it. Just the head of our division doing his usual entertainment song and dance routine and updating the department on the most recent goings on, blah blah ( Read more... )