I want him back ( Read more... )

5th day in a row of crying myself to sleep and feeling un-loved and un-wanted.

yay.

Why do I feel like I'm being punished? For things that happened almost over a year ago, I'm trying to forget them and move on and become a better person but when your boyfriend keeps holding shit against you, it doesn't really help. Is it so bad that I want to party with him sometimes? I mean, I understand that there will be times he just wants to ( Read more... )

Im tired, frustrated, and I want to go to sleep. Don't piss me off.

Ya, I know. I always start this goddamn thing with "I haven't written in here for so long." I'm a mess. A plain mess. Does anyone even read this thing? I mean, honestly. Who am I talking to? Myself ( Read more... )

So, as I sit with Jon and his best friend last night, I began to realize how much of a loser I really am. Every time they get together, they always have these fun, cool memories and stories to look back on that they talk and laugh about. And I got to thinking, that I honestly can't remember any really fun times I had with friends in highschool. I ( Read more... )

So, I don't even know how long it has been since I have written in this journal, but it's better than trying to write on paper and get my hands tired and then develop some kind of arthritis in my later years. Sounds so sad...but true ( Read more... )

Just keep going to the therapy ( Read more... )

So summer is over... I could really use just one more week of freedom before school starts. But I guess it's about time I got the ball rollin' again. It's been a long...eventful...learning summer. I found a lot out about myself that I'm really thankful for I know now and not in the future. It is true what they say...it takes something bad to happen ( Read more... )

So for the past week and a half now, I've been starting to work out and strive to lose weight. It's starting to work I think, but I always get that feeling of needing to work out but being too lazy. I really hate that feeling, because right now, I NEED to work out. And maybe I've never been fat, but I sure as hell don't feel good about myself, and ( Read more... )