So I went on the date with the creepy boy over a month ago. And because I am a bad updater, I didn't update about it. He was sort of creepy. But he was well-intentioned. He dressed up for me and cleaned his car and bought me lunch. It was really a proper date. But he was also 30. And didn't like sports. I also had a black eye. And the first ( Read more... )

I am going on a lunch date tomorrow with the creepy boy (well maybe he's not creepy, but that's how he is in my head) because I was caught off guard while reading the New York Times at work. Prepare for a hilarious story later (hopefully)

I'm turning over a new leaf. This has been inadvertent. I spent a long time feeling sorry for myself, and I think sometimes I still do, but I'm trying to change. I'm not sure what triggered this, but I'm setting goals for myself, trying to make things happen. If they actually start happening, I will let you know. For now, these are things for ( Read more... )

Soo...apparently I'm prone to extreme swings in thought, mood, etc. I was reading my last post and I sounded so sad and confused and now unhappy. I don't think I'm generally that unhappy. Work has been crazy lately and it was definitely stressful, but I've made it through and it looks ok. I'm in the works to starting my own little cake business ( Read more... )

I don't know where it came from. All of the sudden, I feel so uncertain. About life, my future, what I'm doing...I've had this feeling before, but now I feel very antsy. Maybe it's because of work. I've had my first big setback and I hate how it feels. Actually, more the disappointment. The look on my lead engineer's face when I brought up ( Read more... )

There's something special about a Harry Potter book release. I've been to many, but tonight was the first night I actually picked up a book and bought it. Usually I cop out and get it delivered, but for some reason this time I didn't ( Read more... )

I have some really terrific friends. There are only a few, but they are great. Friends who understand me; friends who will support me; friends who I know will always be there for me. I have a tendency to find the best in everyone and over time I have that has come back to hurt me. But I think it's worth it. It's worth it, because I have found ( Read more... )

I got a response. It was generic. I wasn't sure what I was expecting in response, but this wasn't it. There was only one mention of everything I wrote. I believe it was along the lines of, "yeah, it's hard going from talking all the time to not talking so suddenly. Not much else to say about that." No mention of any of the other things I ( Read more... )

I wrote him an email. It took a good month of writing, rereading and rewriting. It was brief, but I hope I got what I needed to across to him. I told him I was hurt, angry, and disappointed. I also told him that I valued him as a friend but rebuilding our friendship is going to take some time ( Read more... )

I've been thinking about what we were talking about the other day a lot. About whether I can just be friends with him. Whether it's more important to tell him how hurt I was (am?) or whether I can just forgive him, move past it, and be friends. I'm still not sure. Is it possible to let him know how I feel and still be friends? Is it possible to ( Read more... )