2 things ( Read more... )

the simple four word phrase strikes again. ...a real shame too, seeing as i'd been drawing the motivation for a number of good things. but how much do i dare believe? are my instincts always wrong when it comes to myself? so rarely do i put any faith in them in instances like this...but i have. ...disappointing, to say the least. can i overcome ( Read more... )

so...it appears i have 2 tickets to coachella day 2 where tool will be headlining. the question now is...who am i taking with me?

dare i venture a guess that i've a newfound regular audience. my guess...would be no. not until there is, again, prodding. some external factor causing change to an otherwise stagnant system. ...actually, it's hardly stagnant...but operates within defined boundaries. there's a find line between security and mediorcity. and...my subtlety is ( Read more... )

So, so you think you can tell ( Read more... )

i can't pull this. i miss walking. now it's hard core weight training and cardio. meh, what ever happened to easing into things. ...and to making it fun so it's not so tough. i think i'm just starting to see...and pretty clearly...she's not interested. ...what great news. can you hear the excitement in my voice. hell, that was three quarters ( Read more... )

...but i feel like a big fat failure...and i hate this feeling

goddamn it jared, just shut up and stop over-analyzing things.

so it's like this ( Read more... )

i apoligize...what i meant to say was...i don't know if i can ever be that person, and you have no idea how phenomenally disappointing that is. if there's still a possibility, i'm sure my attitude has ruined that...obviously my motives were the company, not the activities, though it was and has been, i'll agree, a noble cause. i ain't quitting... ( Read more... )