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the simple four word phrase strikes again. ...a real shame too, seeing as i'd been drawing the motivation for a number of good things. but how much do i dare believe? are my instincts always wrong when it comes to myself? so rarely do i put any faith in them in instances like this...but i have. ...disappointing, to say the least. can i overcome it? can i rise above? will it ever feel the same? goddamn this idealism...goddamn it to hell. surprisingly, i'm not in a bad mood. it just makes me shake my head, and it stings. it always stings.