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i apoligize...what i meant to say was...i don't know if i can ever be that person, and you have no idea how phenomenally disappointing that is. if there's still a possibility, i'm sure my attitude has ruined that...obviously my motives were the company, not the activities, though it was and has been, i'll agree, a noble cause. i ain't quitting...at least not yet. but i can't get these images out of my head...and i can't help but feel i'm a horrible disappointment...but i also can't help but be defensive of the character i've spent so long honing...and that i'm so pleased with. i...i'm just sorry.