New Year, Resolutions.
When I first started down the path to fitness, my resolutions tended to be weight loss or races. The last 5 years, my only "resolutions" have been to be sane and healthy whenever possible. I like that. It's malleable and I can't end up saying, "Okay, I met that goal in March, now it's Anything Goes for the rest of the year!"
That's me in Disneyworld around 2002. I hated the way I looked. I despised having pictures taken of me. I looked bitter and embarrassed in almost every picture. The few there are of me during that time.
The absolute best gift I ever gave myself was the gift of fitness and healthy eating. I'm no longer that embarrassed, bitter person. I like the way I look most days. I still struggle with self image, and I still feel like I look like that picture some days, but I've come a long way. Some people scoff at the amount I exercise or the fact that I'm often obsessive about my eating, but.. it works. I've lost weight and I've gained fitness, but I've also found myself, and I'm so much happier now. I still often struggle with having my picture taken, and will throw out any picture I hate without anyone else seeing it, but I've come a long way, and I'll keep working on it for the rest of my life. Because it's completely worth it.
In an effort to get better with pictures, I'm going to do a 365 Day Picture Challenge. I will take 365 pictures this year and post them to my flickr account, facebook and google+. I hope that at the end of the year, I'll have a little snapshot of a year of my life, what I did, who I was, who I did it with, from my big camera, my little pocket camera, and my phone camera. I won't sweat it if I don't manage to get each day's picture uploaded on that day, and I may fall behind sometimes or post tremendously mundane and boring pictures. And you can bet that I'll post 982739874 puppy pictures. But I also hope to some days hand the camera to someone else and get pictures of myself, or take them in the mirror or from the end of my arm.
This all sounded very deep and serious, so let's start off day 1 of 365 with.. a ridiculous puppy picture from this morning!
"Derp."
(I won't post every picture here on LJ, but I may do some weekly dumps here sometimes, or highlight ones I particularly like. But the full set as it develops will be here.)
That's me in Disneyworld around 2002. I hated the way I looked. I despised having pictures taken of me. I looked bitter and embarrassed in almost every picture. The few there are of me during that time.
The absolute best gift I ever gave myself was the gift of fitness and healthy eating. I'm no longer that embarrassed, bitter person. I like the way I look most days. I still struggle with self image, and I still feel like I look like that picture some days, but I've come a long way. Some people scoff at the amount I exercise or the fact that I'm often obsessive about my eating, but.. it works. I've lost weight and I've gained fitness, but I've also found myself, and I'm so much happier now. I still often struggle with having my picture taken, and will throw out any picture I hate without anyone else seeing it, but I've come a long way, and I'll keep working on it for the rest of my life. Because it's completely worth it.
In an effort to get better with pictures, I'm going to do a 365 Day Picture Challenge. I will take 365 pictures this year and post them to my flickr account, facebook and google+. I hope that at the end of the year, I'll have a little snapshot of a year of my life, what I did, who I was, who I did it with, from my big camera, my little pocket camera, and my phone camera. I won't sweat it if I don't manage to get each day's picture uploaded on that day, and I may fall behind sometimes or post tremendously mundane and boring pictures. And you can bet that I'll post 982739874 puppy pictures. But I also hope to some days hand the camera to someone else and get pictures of myself, or take them in the mirror or from the end of my arm.
This all sounded very deep and serious, so let's start off day 1 of 365 with.. a ridiculous puppy picture from this morning!
"Derp."
(I won't post every picture here on LJ, but I may do some weekly dumps here sometimes, or highlight ones I particularly like. But the full set as it develops will be here.)