( the last few months, and my suicide experience. )

I'm taking a mental health day. No work, skipped school. I'm probably going to regret this, but i am, once again, in no state to leave my house really. I also learned last night that it's a bad idea for me to be upset and drive while it's raining. I found myself speeding looking for puddles to hydroplane. I mean, i don't feel like i'm asking too ( Read more... )

I'm back in new york. I've been waiting for this weekend for a while. To get away from school. From work. Even a break from Steven. I mean, not that we need a break, and we're doing fine, but sometimes things get overwhelming and it gets to much for my little mind. But i'm here. And work calls me asking questions as soon as i land. And i still ( Read more... )

If you read the post i wrote last night, i apologize. I clicked on to make that entry private, but it somehow managed not to be. While i don't really take back anything i said, its unfair for me to say that. He is a good guy too. When i crave milanos, he runs to the store and buys me a package of them. When his car is out of gas, and he has no ( Read more... )

Maybe i should just take out loans and work less. Being busy every day is getting really stressful. Even when my friends are around, i can't hang out cause i'm at work, and then school and then work etc, and it's gay. Steven says if we don't get to see me enough that it would be hard for us to stay together, as if i'm not stressed out enough as it ( Read more... )

After all the time i spent fighting my parents to stop going to my shrinks, i'm going to step up and ask them for another one tomorrow.

Don't bother texting or calling me cause my new phone got stolen at school today.

Life, you really have failed me.

So very many ups & downs
I want stability!

Since i only update when i'm in a bad mood, i decided today would be a nice little change. Things are going absolutely swell at ze moment. On wednesday i didn't work, and hung out with Steven for majority of the day. We went to the beach for sunset, and it was lovely and the beach was empty. We ran into the ocean in all our clothes (and yes, i did ( Read more... )

Who woulda though, that i should believe in love again. What an interesting week it's been.

Soooo, spring break starts in like 3 days and i'm psyched ( Read more... )