just an fyi, im starting a new lj or blog (havent decided yet) b/c i want to distance myself from specific people. you know who are.
if you dont fall into that catergory feel free to email me a note asking about my new url-nanananana.

::insert graphis picture of me giving the finger:::

lalala love you

ugh whatever ( Read more... )

shesbourgie: im bored ( Read more... )

theschlossman: sheesh aren't you getting a little annoyed with yourself?

well yeah i mean, isnt that what suicide is?

so ps seamus reads my ljs, which i dunno i think is weird bc im more than compleatley honest with him-- like, im not keeping any secrets ( Read more... )

so im snowed in at seamus's and it fucking sucks. i wish i had my earl gray tea with milk and the spiral dance in my mexican chair with the cow skulls and the long yellow curtians and green walls. mmmmm. i think once i get here itll bum me out though its a v small space to be alone in. plus i like being around seamus even if theres tension bc ( Read more... )

-THEATER KID ( Read more... )

things i need:

tampons
showers/baths
the kids
my sidekick... terrible, but true
naproxen, maybe.
walking shoes
contact lenses
organic milk

things i dont need

a boyfriend
any more shit

Mom: "well, she tried. Too bad she was so fucking fucked up she couldnt see in front of her face or her guilt. People say we were exactly the same. Except i was what she should have been or could have been if she had let herself love herself. Instead, she took her guilt and shame and regret out on her children and husbands and her self. She ( Read more... )

i woke up the wrong side of the bed this morning,maybebc i knew there was bad news comming.
i can't get into my creative writing class and im really thinking about killing myself again. it almost sounds fun compared to my life at this point.