all of my entries are going to be friends only. .read it and weep. . until i figure out who some of these mystery people reading my lj are its all i can do to keep things from getting leaked to the wrong people . . .aka. .my parents. . .so if u are one of those people (of which i have asked who u are and u have NOT RESPONDED) ruining it for ( Read more... )

so much shit has been going down and i don't even feel like getting into it. my mom goes from telling me to come home tonight totell my dad about school.. .to considering hiding it from him forever in the blink of an eye. .and in the inbetween i'm not sure what how iwant to deal with this whole situation. . i hate feeling confused..and i hate ( Read more... )

so my mom wrote me back. .and was very supportive and for htat i love her. . although we don't agree on all of what to do with next semester. .she did agree to not show my dad the email until tomorrow night. . . after i talk to my councelor and such. . yeah. . .so i'm feeling a little better. .even though she made it seem like my dad wasn't gonna ( Read more... )

BLAH. . .so tonight i wrote the email to my mom. . i think it was sent around ten of 5. It hurt so much to write ( Read more... )

I just realized its officially my dad's birthday. The fucker turns 47 today. . if he does die at 50 like he's said that leaves me three more fucking years with the bastard. .i'll count down every fucking day ( Read more... )

I spent thursday until sunday with brett. . .and it was nice. .it was like a mini vacation. . and we got to talk about some things, work on some things, and just have an all around nice time ( Read more... )

You got lost, For a while ( Read more... )

WOW. So much for home being amazing over the mini-break ( Read more... )

So i might have just jinxed my life by writing this entry. . .but this trip home has been really nice. I've spent minimal time inside my house (besides thanksgiving) and the times i have spent in my house have been nice. .not tense. . not fighting. . but my house has been my home for the first time in a long time ( Read more... )

My parents BEGGED me to get brett to come up for thanksgiving. .go figure ( Read more... )