i have to fucking do something with my life and fast. i'm dying here in b.f.e. i don't want to live here for an extended period of time so i feel like i'm wasting most of my energy building a clientel somewhere i don't want to be. i want to live where there are interesting people...where i have company that shares my interests...i'm sick of ( Read more... )

NEWS FLASH! i'm a fucking adult. i need to make my own decisions.

i was so irate

i'm so ridiciouly scared right now. the next week and a half my mind will be mush. i have to be honest with everyone...no matter what. i'm an adult and i can make my own decisions. SCARED SCARED...scared stupid.

i met jacy's family this weekend. i adore his mom. she's so stinkin' cute and smiley. we had such a good time this weekend. we went out sat. night and i had an awesome time. his friends are so insane. and joel's girlfriend muffin is a riot. i got poison ivy at his mom's farm and i almost freaked out last night in a bad way...but he let me ( Read more... )

this morning started off while i was still asleep. i dreamed about jarret. it wasn't awful, but it made my heart hurt. it was almost like a commercial for a reality tv show...where this "rock'n'roll" dad takes care of his kid...and skateboards through his son's school halls...yadda yadda. the worst part of the "preview" was jarret and ashley ( Read more... )

i just want to get drunk this weekend...is that so much to ask for?

let's see...my dad said clean out my car for monday so we can go shop for another one.  maybe this time he'll actually follow through with it.  putting ashley in and out of the two door car is killing me.  i want baby dumptruck/max puppies.  they'd be so stinkin' cute!

ashley seems like he's getting sick again.  i hope it's not another ear infection.  jacy and i were going to take him swimming this weekend...but if he's sick that's out of the question.  i really hope he isn't getting the stomach bug i had.  that crap is miserable ( Read more... )

if this is another...i miss him so bad we never see each other relationship...somebody shoot me. it's just that he's in nyc on vaca...but still...two weeks is a really long time ( Read more... )

ask me about how happy i am...b/c i'm happy.