I'm in a nightmare and none of this is real. Please tell me I'm not alone. Please tell me he still wants me. Please tell me he's the one. I want him to be but he doesn't want me to be. I've screwed up everything that could have been and I can't go back. I can't make him happy. I feel like there's nothing left, I don't want to go on and let go. I ( Read more... )

of losing my mind. things are becoming, all to familiarly, frustrating. paper makes us do what we do. colored paper makes me tired and weary during long eight hour days soon to become 12 and 13 hour days. at long last the days grow thinner and dull like tempera paint on clean tangible paper. back to paper. it never leaves. walking away, only to ( Read more... )

"i can see you... you got your hair combed back... my love for you will still be strong ( Read more... )

i feel like every feeling of hate and jealousy and lonsomeness has been ripped from my throat, put back in and then ripped out again. i figure this will be the answer. being alone. he obviously isn't worth it or didn't really feel that way when he told me that he wanted to be with me. it's funny how hanging out with someone or talking to someone ( Read more... )

i hate not knowing what is going to happen next.

what... is going on?!

it's amazing that six and a half years of spilling my emotions to three boys would matter and be important ( Read more... )

heeeeelp me!

i'm supposed to be happy, right? why is it that i feel so lost?

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i find myself becoming lost when i return home from work. what should i do? how does one find thyneself? and did i spell thyneself right?

what should i eat today?