end it now...
i feel like every feeling of hate and jealousy and lonsomeness has been ripped from my throat, put back in and then ripped out again. i figure this will be the answer. being alone. he obviously isn't worth it or didn't really feel that way when he told me that he wanted to be with me. it's funny how hanging out with someone or talking to someone can alter everythingyou feel about another person. it's inevitable that jealousy and ignorance plays in all this. well... my goal now is to sleep forever.... nighty all.