i've had a great few days. isn't that suprising? especially considering the holiday. but i sure do feel really good. and i'm fighting the crazy inside my head too. maybe i shouldn't have mentioned that.

I'm sitting here eating oatmeal aware that i'm going to be 10+ minutes late for work. I'm shoving it into my mouth so i don't have to pay for any breakfast.

I've been working 10-4 Mon-Fri & so far its the perfect balance for me between freedom and free time & dependable structure. Anxiety is still getting at me during the day especially when i feel that i have unfinished business in my studio at home, but at least the workdays go fast and i still have good energy when i get home. I've been staying up ( Read more... )

Excellently i left the basement.  You were looking for food when i found you in the kitchen.  Did it make sense?  Then it didn't.  You had just eaten.  But now it does ( Read more... )

I went to see the work of Noah Purifoy yesterday. it was an amazing sculpture garden he created in the middle of the desert. After that we went to Joshua Tree National Park.

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well the doctor did very little & seemed indifferent. listened to my heart & breathing. then he sent me to the hospital for some chest xrays. hopefully i'll know something tomorrow.

I'm going to the doctor today. I have a 3:45 appointment in Westwood. I"m feeling ok like i usually do in the morning. Hopefully i'll be feeling bad by the time i'm at the doctor so i don't feel like a lying fraud when i get there. But really I don't have any insurance and who would pay to be a lying fraud?

My scanner broke today! I guess it was fragile from lack of use. I can't remember using it at all since i moved from Astoria. I had all these family photos sorted and I was going to spend the morning scanning them in, to save for posterity (and exploitation?) But anyway after only scans it just stopped working. I guess i have to buy a new one ( Read more... )

The weathers so nice today. Its the most beautiful day of the year. The weather must be sending some weird electricity through my brain because i'm in quite a good mood ( Read more... )

I feel so generally unwell & scared. My right leg has been hurting from ankle to hip, i think its a nerve & i've been walking with a limp. My throat is sore in the back when i swallow its painful. and i have a pain right bellow my ribs ( Read more... )