touching you touch me ( Read more... )

My life is a bore right now...mostly my fault though. I've always been the type that needs others to get me up off my ass when ive had down time. I need deadlines, reports, responsibility. I NEED to find a job. When you are in physical pain you do nothing. Doing nothing leads to more doing nothing, which leads to depression. Depression leads you to ( Read more... )

Maybe i will never see you walk through the door, the stir in the house as you settle into comfort, But some fond memory of relations. I never smiled when i saw you making eachother smile, a thousand lashes would not even secure the regert inside, but this is my chance to never regret again. To mend family and friendships long forgotten. Please ( Read more... )

We are all running and busy ( Read more... )

Ground Rules: The 1st player of this "game" starts with the topic "5 weird habits of yourself" and people who get tagged need to write an LJ entry about their 5 weird habits as well as state this rule clearly. In the end, you need to choose the next 5 people to be tagged ( Read more... )

I got into a car wreck ( Read more... )

I got a journal and im going to write in it ( Read more... )

Im afraid of everything that i want...and i want an adventure. I dont want to be in the land of brave and free, free from poverty, but we have our own. Our homeless eat pigeons, while we have no idea of hard work ( Read more... )

Last night i was filled with a new hope that has drained away suddenly like melted plastic. The plastic that seals my trunk, flooded, water damage. It is so lonley when you have no purpose, and everything that you preach is yet another aspect of yourself. I thought that the weight of the world was a quaint joke, or a reason for suicidal thoughts. ( Read more... )

There is something else that i have firm issues with. I bleieve im right in every aspect of the matter and yet i too suffer from it. When im feeling down, pitying myself, i feel i have no right, and therefore feel guilty. Yet another heavy emotion tacked onto the bit. Why should i feel guilty? Because there are people with worse problems? So ( Read more... )