i think i might have been in love. i dont know if it was me just finding peace and complete compassion for another human being, or whether it was love. whatever it was, its definitly gone now. that compassion and reverance is lost. im very upset by this. oh, well. present moment. wonderful moment. buddhism brings me back to my center. hope you all ( Read more... )

I cant believe it! i got to see ELTON JOHN!!!! He was amazing! he played awesome songs, and we sang along to every one that we could! i got to miss school the next day cuz i got home at 230!! I can hardly speak! the concert was ridiculus!!!!!! i was so jealous of the people in the first rows, who got his autograph!!!! we danced and were on our feet ( Read more... )

ha! this weekend i went fishing! me, fishing... that was a laugh. i felt sick cuz of the cigarette smoke, and then later, i could hardly eat the fish because i felt guilty taking the fish and killing it. i strictly told my dad, though, that i wouldnt fish unless we threw them back or ate them. i can't believe i fished!!!

first time in over a year to post. wow, it feels kind of odd. but now im on because, yet again i have friends! yay!! i got back from Spain bout a week and a half ago, and now im at my grandparents house in westhampton. i cant believe it! our song, OUR song, Crazy Frog, is now in the US. its almost like we brought it back with us like a disease. ( Read more... )

Gone.No one for me, all for oneself.Life.

Gone.New.

Gone.

Signs. I now truly believe in signs. Now, how can i not ( Read more... )

im fucking scared. ive hid it from my friends and family, and worst, from myself. the worst part is not knowing. i cant relax, cuz it could happen any second, and i can not accept it and cry, and let out my pain. no, i have to keep my pain. hidden from the world. from all except maybe one. she could understand. after all, she wore black. i want to ( Read more... )

I m now in Mallorca, ppls!!!!! it is soooo awesome, i get to sleep on the porch overloking the mediterranean sea!!!im here for two weeks and then ireland for another week! wow! i am i spoiled rich bitch! oh well, im havin a damn good time with it, so i dont resent it. the place is awesome! and for those of you skinny, wannabe anorexic(whether u ( Read more... )

I AM: nothing, half dead i suppose ( Read more... )

Well this is my first ever funeral, and i can't decide whether I'm most dreading more than anything or am enthusiastic that it's my first time. I guess I'm both. I know that this funeral is for a guy I don't even know, but it's still a real funeral, and (because they're Catholic) there's a viewing as well. I don't think I mind the funeral itself, ( Read more... )