so too many people are on my myspace now. I can't vent now. so yet another place that I cannot escape to. I am really glad to have found that I can do this from my phone now. especially since my brother has claimed my lap top we are at home. and he is always there when I am home. it seems he is always there no matter where I go he's there. what's ( Read more... )

looking back on my life I have know alot of people. most of them I am grateful. others I wonder what their pourpose in my life could have possibley been, they have served me nothing but pain and aguise. up untill this point in my life, however I have never realized that. but up untill this point in my life have I ever been realy happy. I belive in ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD I CAN'T FUCKING STNAND IT ANYMORE. I AM TIRED OF TIPTOEING AROUND THE FACT THAT HE HAS A DRINKING PROBLE. I AM TIRED OF THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO BE THE ADULT ALL THE FUCKING TIME I WANT TO BE FUCKING IRRESPONSIBLE SOME TIMES. I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW THAT THE REASON THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE THE FUCKING RENT MONEY IS BC HE PAID ALL HIS BILLS ( Read more... )

I wonder whoever decided that it wasn't enough to know. its like it's not enough to know but we have to see the love. where as the memories and the picture remind us for a moment but even then it's not enough. in that moment of euphora where we remember that special moment we want to create it again and at that moment it's not as special so it ( Read more... )

I wonder if I am really codependant ( Read more... )

I think too much sometimes. I over analize stuff alot. I wonder often why I do this. there are a lot of times that I wish that I carried a tape recorder with me so I could say my thoughts like I mean. I wish that I seperate my mind from my feelings. alot of times my feelings take over my mind. I know in my head how things are but in my heart I ( Read more... )

I really hate being ignored. that's all that ever happens to me. I have been ignored all my life. I know every one is concerned about themselve but it seems that all I do is worrie about other people and no one worries about me. I am so mad at everybody in my life. everybody.geez my boyfiend just sits around drinkinkin all the time. for god fuking ( Read more... )

I just want eveybody in the world to know that men suck! they all shoud be lined up for a firing squad. I mean honestly why should I have to take responsibility for my twenty five year old boyfirend who is such an alcholic that he got a dui and can't get his licence back cause he spends all his money driking. he can't spend he fucking money on me. ( Read more... )

so how do you over come the idea and the want for sex? I don't really want to just have sex, I want to make love to the person I love. however this is not possible. There is always some excuse " I don't feel like it, I am relaxing right now, I have stuff on my mind..." I am begining to belive that he doesn't find me attractive anymore. what is sex ( Read more... )