I CAN'T FUCKING STAND IT ANYMORE
OH MY GOD I CAN'T FUCKING STNAND IT ANYMORE. I AM TIRED OF TIPTOEING AROUND THE FACT THAT HE HAS A DRINKING PROBLE. I AM TIRED OF THE FACT THAT I HAVE TO BE THE ADULT ALL THE FUCKING TIME I WANT TO BE FUCKING IRRESPONSIBLE SOME TIMES. I WOULD LIKE TO KNOW THAT THE REASON THAT HE DOESN'T HAVE THE FUCKING RENT MONEY IS BC HE PAID ALL HIS BILLS ALREADY, I WOULD BE OK WITH THAT BUT HE SPENT ALL HIS FUCKING MONEY ON DRINKING AND DOENS'T EVEN CARE THAT I CAN'T BY MY FAMILY FUCKING CHRISTMAS PRESENTS BECAUSE HE SPENT ALL HIS FUCKING MONEY DRINKING. I CAN'T BELIVE THAT HE ONLY THINKS OF HIMSELF. I KNOW HE IS AN ONLY CHILD BUT FOR GOT FUCKING SAKES WAS HE NOT TAUGHT TO CONSIDER OTHERS FIRST. I AM TIRED OF FUCKING TIPTOEING AROUND EVERTHING. MAKING IT SEEM LIKE EVERTHING IS FOR US BECAUSE WHEN I GET UPSET THATS HOW HE MAKES IT OUT TO BE. WHY CAN HE MAKE ME FEEL LIKE SHIT WHEN I GET UPSET BUT WHEN I AM UPSET AND MAKE A VALID ARGUMENT ITS LIKE NUMBER ONE HE DOESN'T HEAR IT AND TWO HE MAKES ME FEEL DUMB FOR FEELING THE WAY I DO. I AM SO SICK AND FUCKING TIRED OF IT, GOD DAMN IT. I AM SO TIRED OF HIM USING HIS ENTIRE FAMILY AS AND EXCUSE TO DRINK. HE IS LIKE " I AM 400 MILES AWAY FROM MY FAMILY SO THAT MUST MEAN THAT I MISS THEM LET ME DRINK" BIG FUCKING WOPPTY DOO.I SPENT THE LAST 4 YEARS AWAY FROM MINE AND THE LAST 10 AWAY FROM HALF OF THEM SO DON'T GIVE ME THAT WADDED UP BULL SHIT. HE DOESN'T EVEN FUCKING TOUCH ME ANYMORE. WHATS WRONG WITH ME. AM I THAT MUCH OF A NAG OR AM I THAT UNATTRACTIVE, WHY WONT HE TALK TO ME, WHY WONT HE FUCKING TALK TO ME. I WISH I COULD GIVE UP. I AM SO TIRED.