Spring 2016 mom passed away ( Read more... )

So happy after all these years that LIVE JOURNAL still has my goofy posts still there, as if nothing had happened.

The past 3 years have been a nightmare; how much of it was my fault and how much that of others, I cant say. Its not good to try and assign blame to anyone in such delicate, constantly changing situations such as our family has been facing. In a fog of depression and chronic pain, I tried to forget myself to the point that I might not exist, ( Read more... )

Been through hell but i may yet live.

This has been a horrible day.

when we moved in here in 2004, my parents had just been on a rescue mission to save my aunt. Malnourished, depressed over her partner's death from breast cancer, poor, just a wreck, she came here about the same time we did.

Mary's mental status has never been 100%. She's got more than one screw loose. Just like my own ( Read more... )

I am having this idea for either a painting or a really good drawing......its welling up inside me, it has to come out. I just have to block out the composition in my mind. My ex-husband is a Vietnam Vet with PTSD. Yes, in many ways I still do love him, you don't stay together as long as we did and not have a connection. I still feel his pain. I ( Read more... )

Probably time to put some daylight between myself and AP. I'm not in the mood to get hurt and he doesnt feel quite the same as I do, I dont think. This is probably for the best since he is real busy with moving and all that stuff. I am discouraged. But life goes on and I have to think about myself instead of....as with all my other crazy ( Read more... )

The veil between the worlds DOES grow thin.....I had a dream last night. I went to visit Grandma Rita. She's fine, in fact she is living much as she did while on this plane of existence. She may not even fully understand yet what happened to her. I'm just glad I finally got to see her.

This is what concerned me. Kenny was there, and so was my ( Read more... )

Nancy Cunningham Art

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And here I am. I'm thinking about how much I have changed in the past year and a half. I used to fly in and work 12-hour shifts, double shifts, any kind of shift....and now one hour on my feet and I am really hurting. My side hurts. My hemoglobin was low yesterday and I am just waiting for the doc to call and tell me to go get a CT instead of a ( Read more... )