i am worth nothing to my parents ( Read more... )

wow.

i just got hit with a terrible terrible feeling, of really intense lonliness.
im lonely.
i want to cry. but im too dull to really have tears.
what the hell is wrong.

stupid bipolarity.
i cant wait till friday.

i'm in an amazing mood because of exercising. I really love exercising. tennis and curves, it makes me feel so so good about myself, and i just get in such a happy mood. oh man. i'm so happy happy happy!
:::happy sigh:::

*Nights in white satin never reaching the end ( Read more... )

i have no talents ( Read more... )

today is work day from hell ( Read more... )

today was my last first day back to school, ever. Well, not counting college. being such an important day and all, i waited from 6:55am to 7:20am in the soppy gross rain/mud, in a little skirt/t-shirt, and sandals, for the stupid bus. yes. i am a senior, and i take the bus. tomorrow billy may drive me to school, but i don't think he really wants ( Read more... )

i feel yucky today. ive been hanging out with Lara and her friends, who are also my friends, even though they are 11 and 12. They are skinny. It makes me sad ( Read more... )

hm. its been kind of awhile. tj and i went to stillwell today. i was afraid to jump in. something about just being 2 of us, i thought i'd die. also, i just saw jaws for the first time, so i think i was afraid of the killer fish they have in stillwell ( Read more... )

i'm thirsty.

hey look. its my body. on an actress.


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The name of Lena creates a restless, creative nature that takes you into many ventures, but does not allow you to see things through to a satisfactory completion. Yours is a versatile, musical, artistic, but independent nature and you must have the freedom to express your creative ideas and abilities to be happy. An urge for independence causes ( Read more... )