I need to get a job so I can go to art school already. god damn.

Today I manically chatted with people on FB, and I got four different numbers.. which is nice cause I've been feeling super un-loveable lately. Oliver has assburgers and is beautiful and i'm gonna get drunk with him on the beach this weekend if I haven't jumped ship south...as i have been FANTASIZING about. i also got the number of this really ( Read more... )

Why does it upset me so much when you tell me you "love me but aren't in love with me"? I could never love anyone who says corn ball shit like that, or someone who says "I can't watch anymore tv" after just 4 episodes of 30 rock. Plus I cheated on you several times. When did I become the pathetic girl that worries no one will ever love her again. ( Read more... )

Luxe violence of my soul ( Read more... )

When I was born and bored I was full. When the cognizant world bloomed around me all I saw was mystery. Childhood was a Muppet noir with a Yoko Ono score. Spirits were everywhere and the walls were gelatin. Beauty was an irretrievable path but somehow the most important one to walk. When I looked at beauty, closer and closer every day, it just made ( Read more... )

I should probably just get it over with and submit to the higher-ups, the fucking powers that be. I'm not really getting anything done or feeling all that good about my life right now, anyways. Now if someone could just tell me what to do and how to do it, and when to do it, who to do it with et al., that would be fantastic. I'm overcome with the ( Read more... )

you swing your head up and down side to side as you hold your white zinfandel like an unwanted bodypart. your darkness is showing. but im not mad, oh no, i fucking hate that shit almost as much as i loved it before and it's all your fault, but i'm not mad. before we got in the solo borderline bitch knife fight we met in a serial kilers bedroom, ( Read more... )

Plans for life;
Start dressing like Jean Seberg and Anna Karina on a regular basis
Practice DBT daily
Start school in winter
Keep job
Balance
Stop being such a townie
Work on the whole addiction aspect of life
Become more culturally aware
Be more discerning as to who I spend time with

Plan for week;
Do hand excercises as specified
Read books and paint
Do not ( Read more... )

my muse has a constant commentary of her life going for all of us to enjoy.

Light reflects off of all the wrong surfaces at the zombie killer squat in the sky which we had all made our getaway to. You had recommended a marsh mellow castle 10 miles east, but I had refused, explaining that the drugs flew faster and the people too. When you got your brains eaten I was too fucked up to notice, and to think i pride myself on ( Read more... )