everybody's gone. i'm still here.

i think i lost my best friend.

god damn irony. two years ago i would've given my left leg and probably some fingers to move away, far away, to college. now i'm supposed to and of course i'd rather go back. ya know the smell when you walk into school in the fall? of course i hated going back to school every fall, but walking into the building with everybody you know and smelling ( Read more... )

it's been a while. I'm back in town... for about two days... this summer has been one trip after another, and it's kind of strange. ecuador, basketball trips, camp, clear lake, kansas, south carolina, camp again, and then camp again. i love it. i think i've put up a mind block because I can't see past august 25. I'm pretty sure August 26 and the ( Read more... )

I COME HOME ON FRIDAY. CAN WE PLEASE HAVE A PARTY?! PEACE AND LOVE. CIAO.

Hey kids. not much time. thought i'd say hi. today i swam in a volcano. (not in the lava, in a lake that has filled from rain water while it's not been active.) it was 40 degrees F. coldest thing i've ever experienced. kind of thrilling though. I haven't showered in forever. so i'm off to do that. much love.

Hey, did you know you could get on Livejournal in Ecuador? Bet ya didn´t. Don´t fret, you can. (I know you were all fretting!) AND i know you´re thinking i´m a freak, who gets on livejournal when you´re in ecuador? well, i was checking my mail and had messages from replies on my livejournal, so here I am. plus, it´s raining and i´m sick of ( Read more... )

Ya know what I find funny? No. scratch that. I used to find it somewhat comical. now it just plain pisses me off. Everybody in the whole fucking world thinks they are alone. EVERYBODY thinks that they (and only they) are the ONE who doesn't "have" somebody. everybody. everybody thinks that no one else gets it. That no one else could possibly ( Read more... )

It is understandable to not want to feel regret. Yet does it make sense to live in a manner solely to avoid feeling this way? maybe by living in such a way, one would miss out on some other great possibility and in the end, regret that too.

For a long time she flew only when she knew no one else was watching.