its probaly really bad when your chest hurts so much, that when you breathe you taste blood.
yup, thats how im feelin rite now.
o well, time for bed then school, work. then to repeat this process

i dont really know why i update, since nobody reads it. i suppose its just some way for my mind to express itself through words. but the past couple days have been okay. friday i finally got off after 10 straight days of work. went up to lowell, it was diana's birthday sorta. so we just kinda dicked around until the fun started. and the fun never ( Read more... )

most people dont do very well and i get discouraged with ( Read more... )

i am sick. and it sucks. feels like something is exploding in my fucking stomach

How You Life Your Life
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in retrospect of recent events, ive given up on girls. im not gonna have the trouble, anxiety, or hope anymore

so, whats new? yup, ashley and i are over. im at a new school. i have a newer car. thats pretty much it ( Read more... )

my life has always been about me and being down. people always tell me to 'cheer up' and that 'life will be better'. if they grew up in my hellhole, theyd be singing a different tune. my life has been customized by my horrible childhood and my grandfather raising me. thus combining turns me into the man i am today ( Read more... )

"I remember some things. But not so much being in a suit, and old, and black. Why am I black? And where did i get this suit? its ridiculous ( Read more... )

i need something to do besides do fuckin laundry. something, ANYTHING