Okay well since the last time i updated this thing I have been inlove with chris and Peter and Andrew now like me......I listened to depressing songs not too long ago and drank a little bit of vodka and i called chris and he wasnt home and i called my ex Charles and hes like "im in ocean city" so i was like ok ill let you go then and i asked him if ( Read more... )

Okay well today i got my very first tattoo.....it's bigger than i had planned but its really pretty its on the back of my left shoulder and kinda on my back some and it's a tinkerbell (i LOVE tinkerbell)....I saw Mommy Alisha today and hopefully she can get me a job with her....Then I saw Peter which made me happy cuz i hadn't gotten to see him in ( Read more... )

Okay well i didn't get any sleep last night and this morning i had a huge hangover and i couldn't sleep....I hung out with Chris at his house and Joey and Justin and Cody lol then i hung out with Chris and Jesse for a bit until theywentto pick up Alicia and drop me off at my house so they could go to the bar....they'e sapposed to be picking me up ( Read more... )

Ok so today was Chris' 21st birthday...Him and Jesse came and picked me upand i introduced Jesse to Alicia (wow not even getting into that right now lol) Well needless to say i got torn up...smirnoff...budlight...grain...oh hell yeah lol i couldnt walk by myself Chris had to help me into the hosue and i ended up staying the night with him....Well ( Read more... )

Ok so I talked to my ex who like never talks to me anymore for over 2 hours on the phone.....and it was very interesting....yeah i miss him at times....it was definately good to hear his voice i just hope we can start talking more then we have been cuz he's awesome...if we're never gonna date again i hope we can atleast be friends...i mean after ( Read more... )

Well Hunter picked me up and we chilled over at trap pond and went for a walk...it was...interesting i guess....he misses me at times atleast i now know that i'm not the only one...I've had somebody else on my mind alot today though...i wish i could see him i need a hug really bad and he always makes me feel better

Jessica and Erica wanted to do nothing but run their fuckin mouth today callin me a hoe and shit well you know wut fuck them ones a nasty dyke and the other looks like she got hit by a fuckin truck and left for the volchers to eat so they can kiss my fuckin ass.

Okay I admitt it...I'm in love and I don't care who knows it...he's all I think about. He makes me feel so comfortable and I feel like I can talk to him about absolutely anything. I want to be his one and only, but he doesn't see me like that. -sigh- He knows that I like him....he just doesn't know how strong my feelings are.In a way I want him to ( Read more... )

Today has been so boring....My dad got home from the hospital so that's good...had a bunch of family over to visit him...i haven't gotten to talk to chris still....i think he might be at his moms house...eric keeps bugging me to come over to visit him and i need to get my cell phone back from him.....i need to do something i'm so bored nobody is ( Read more... )

Ok so my dad had a heart attack a couple days ago and he had to have surgery today....My ex decided to give me a visittoday to look at some pics i JUST got developed back from october which was just great...he just made me all confused inside....i still care about him but the mixed feelings i got were crazy....on top of that my mom came home from ( Read more... )