*hurts*

[scarredbutalive]

In Februari 2009 my fiance since 2 years disapeared. He had a bi-polar disorder. He drank over 7 liters of vodka and whiskey in one single week. He threatened me. Looked me out of our apartment. Threatened my father. Disapeared. I got a new apartement. A new life. I went on. But with nightmares. Nightmares of me standing in the yard of my work-

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[niyazi_a]

The first serious relationship I was ever in ended in suicide. He OD'd on heroin and cocaine. It was deliberate

[scarredbutalive]

Thank you. It seems insignificant to only say that, since it cannot clearly explain how much your words makes an impact on me. It feels wonderful (and that may sound strange, and is probably not the right word to use) that somewhere in the world there is someone who actually understands how I feel. Someone who can explain in words better than myself how I feel. I sincerely wish that I could help you as well, even if it might be difficult since I have such trouble to explain myself in english. But I can try, if you want