I feel like I'm coming out of my skin. I haven't felt this insane since I got divorced. Well, maybe for the three days when I thought Joe was dumping me. But I want to leave this house and never come back. I want to stop looking at the wasted animal he's become and stop hoping that he's going to get better. Cuz when I come back he'll be all ( Read more... )

I just don't know what to do with this goddamn cat. I'm so mad at him right now. I wish he'd just give up the will to live. But oh no!! He hollers at me for food. He wants to rocket through the living room to get to the kitchen. But unfortunately he can't so I see him tire quickly. And after he eats he just doesn't seem to feel well. And he ( Read more... )

Bijou continues to display symptoms of nausea. Now he’s drooling and I was worried that he had a bad tooth. But Dr Shine thinks it’s still the nausea because he tends to do it most after he’s eaten or drunk. I’m adding Pepcid to his medication to see if it eases his symptoms. If it doesn’t, then it means I’m backed in a corner. Next measures ( Read more... )

Hmmmm, so....

Hormone levels - normal
Ultrasound - normal
Spotting - continues

I am at a loss.

So, several miscommunications later, Joe and I are fine. He apologized for waiting too long to get to the point. And also for not realizing that his actions coupled with the "we'll talk later" was a flashing red light. I apologized for misinterpreting and getting my panties in a twist prematurely ( Read more... )

and because my life isn't complete without more heartache, Joe is breaking up with me ( Read more... )

I have made the agonizingly painful decision to let Bijou go. He is not getting around well at all. And the longer I wait the more lame he will become. And I don't want it to be an emergent situation. He is slow to get anywhere and it seems to exhaust him. He finishes his dinner and just sort of rolls onto his side. He is pure skin and bone ( Read more... )

I've been spotting since my period ended around 11/23. It isn't normal for me ( Read more... )

I don't have the money but I'm running one last chem/CBC to check his kidneys. I thought I ran it again in June/July but apparently the last time was in March. Because that will be a deciding factor in how I proceed. If his kidneys are toast then there is nothing more I can do for him. But if his kidneys are ok then we are on course with ( Read more... )

So last night it was more of the same. He ate. Slowly. And walked away when there was still food left. I have to pick it up cuz the others swoop in. I'd give it back to him, he'd pick at it, then walk away. But I gave him a bit of salmon from my dinner and he about took my finger off to get it. He was going towards the couch as if to join ( Read more... )