Day 74 - A soul in tension that's learning to fly

[sawanai]

Day 74
Your Name: Hisoka
Suicidal Ideation: 3
Homicidal Ideation: 0
Amount of Sleep Last Night: Seven hours
Any Lucid or Vivid Dreams? Explain.: None, thankfully
Moods Experienced Today: Confused, but mostly calm. Kinda lonely
Mood Triggers: Hearing about the dance. I want to go, but...it makes me wish he were here to go with.
Significant Thoughts

Comments

[hitsuzenwoman]

Would you like me to come with you, Hisoka?

[sawanai]

I think I want to try and do something without having you right there. I know I can find you if I need you, Yuuko-san, but I can't get stronger if I don't try new things, right?

[hitsuzenwoman]

That's very true. I'll be at the party either way. I hope you have a good time.

[sci_fi_horror]

Parties are always loud, but you get used to it after a while. Makes everything really quiet when you finally leave too.

[sawanai]

Noises and touches are louder and weirder for me than most people. It's hard to explain, but it's scary to be sitting somewhere and the feeling like the noise of everyone talking is pushing down on you so you can't breath or move.

[sci_fi_horror]

Then we make sure you're having too much fun to notice!

[presentkindness]

Who is your new therapist?

[sawanai]

His name is Vincent.

[presentkindness]

I could talk to him for you, if you think that might make things better?

Private

[sawanai]

He was nice to me, but I felt that it was fake niceness. There's nothing you can do about that.

[scarsnblueeyes]

We seem to have the same therapist, but I haven't actually met him yet.

Is he really bad? I'm kind of freaking out about meeting him...

Hi, we've never met. But I'm Naruto!

=^_^= <-- That's supposed to be a little fox.

Private

[sawanai]

He seems fake to me, like he doesn't really care about his patients.

You must be new here. I've been here a while.

Private

[scarsnblueeyes]

This is only my third day... spent the first one kind of out of it... and I can't remember anything of yesterday.

I'm new to the therapist thing... aren't they suppose to care for us?

Private

[sawanai]

Some of them care, some of them are cruel, and some don't seem to think of anything other than themselves.

[fatheramazing]

I'm sorry I creeped you out Hisoka. I'm new to this therapy thing, y'know? So if I seemed off, it's because I was just as nervous as you. You were the first patient I met with.

I hope we can try again.

[sawanai]

I have a hard time trusting some people at first. It's nothing personal.

[fatheramazing]

I understand. I won't lie to you, I also have a hard time trusting people.

[sawanai]

It doesn't help that you sound a lot like that man....