There's no way this can keep going on, it must be done and soon. I'll have to find someone...someone who can help me with...
I'd rather not even think about it right now...
Is there anyone who can help me...

That I am human...again. It's really not a bad thing, I'm only twenty so I'm not too old, but...it is a bit tiring don't you think? Perhaps not. I hope to make this announcement a bit more public soon, but for now I shall keep it a bit more private and post it here, that's really all I had to say. Thank you.

Anytime I need to see your face I just close my eyes ( Read more... )

I should tell Nicki what I'm planning to do. He would like to know I'm sure...but then again--
No. I'll keep it to myself for now. It would be better that way.

I'm so damn bored.

Bloody shirt. Bloody eyes. Bloody tears. BLOODY HELL! The world is a torment, perhaps moving on would have been best. But I did so miss my Nicki...and truly without him I am just a bloody mess.

Fire. Burns. Children.
But it had to happen. There was no other way. I had to purge myself of what I was. I need to be here. For now.

She finally let us out...I've been stuck in that dim mind for weeks...I can't take it anymore, not like she was bad to me, she was good to me, very good to me...it's just so damn dark...and boring.

I am stupid and I am alone. All is as it should be.

Perhaps I am some sort of demon sent to earth to ruin lives.
But no as demonic as the girl who forces me to help her write essays in english that she can't seem to do herself.
But I need time...to sort things out...and I hope...I just hope he understands...