I need an adventure. I envy people who can just pick up and move. Just get up and go. Those people are so brave to me. I've been going through that usual funk where I feel like nothing is moving in my life. Not spiritually, although, that could definitely use a bit of a boost. It's more just that I feel like what more can I do at work? What more ( Read more... )

When, you know?  When does it come to pass? When can I look back and say, "wow, it really did happen"? I think that the toughest part is the looking at friendships and thinking, "this one's it, it has to be" and then BAM! I realize it's not. Mixed signals, yet again. Empty flirtations, again. You are never going to be their type. Almost 30 years ( Read more... )

So, I have had the best moment of my life! On Tuesday, January 19th, 2010 I sang the National Anthem at the Anaheim Ducks game. There really aren't any words to describe what I felt. The journey has been long and many times between finding out that I won the contest and the actual moment, I considered telling them that I couldn't do it after all. I ( Read more... )

He's dying. He's dying and there's nothing I can do about it. He lies there with an oxygen tank not able to fully fall asleep because he stops breathing and it wakes him up. He's so frail. He's so small. He's not the strong man I knew. He's not the man that would help me no matter what. He's not the amazing man that taught me everything I believe ( Read more... )

So the first show is tonight... CRAZY!!! I can't believe I actually stuck around this year! Its been fun.... mostly. Jonelle and I have done all we could to make it fun. Mostly just sat around and complained/talked about all the people in the show! HAHA ( Read more... )

Happy Single Awareness Day...

That's right, its Valentine's Day. A year ago today, I was shopping and getting my hair done for a fun night out with friends, including the guy I liked. This year I am working, and dreading the fact that I gotta head to my parents tonight to tell them that I basically need almost $1,000 to cover my rent. I don't know ( Read more... )

Have you ever missed someone that was still around ( Read more... )

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I did it once again, I was updating and totally just clicked on my inbox and lost EVERYTHING I had written!!!

Well, I guess I will just say this: I've decided to go friends only. Nothing's happened to make me feel like I absolutely have to do this, I just realized that I put a lot of personal thoughts on here, and I just don't want the wrong people ( Read more... )

I was seriously going through withdrawals when lj was down. I was scared...ok, not really, but I did miss it a lot!