you know what i always liked about you? i was always myself around you. i never faked a laugh or pretended to like something just because you did. and you always liked me that way. and yet, rarely ever were you truly yourself around me. you always felt the need to impress. and i'm sorry i made you feel that you had to do outrageous things to get my

party shmarty. everybody just come to my house all the time whenever you feel free. i worked for a million hours today and now i am so utterly exhausted that i am fighting to stay awake. i don't want to go to sleep because i always feel like while i'm sleeping something really cool will happen and i will miss it. plus i'm lonely. i really miss ( Read more... )

change of plans. i think i'm going to get my mom to have a dinner party for us. and it probably won't be friday. i'd like to do it earlier in the week, like wednesday. how's that. and then afterwards we can come to my apartment for cocktails. i got cute little invitations, but if we do it wednesday i won't have time to mail them out. but why send ( Read more... )

so i'm thinking we'll have the party on next Friday. how does that work for you guys. and so far the guest list is small, which is good, but if you can think of anybody else that you would like to invite let me know. but please do not invite anyone without clearing that with me first. i love you!!!

yay, i have the internet now. my very own internet. to enjoy all by myself in my big empty depressing apartment. please love me, guys.

i went to the mall yesterday to find a great outfit to wear out and i wanted something smart and classy and sexy and every damn store had all of there summer shit out already. IT IS NOT SUMMER YET!!! not even in texas. and it pissed me off so badly. because not only was everything mini skirts and stupid trashy tank tops, but it was all neon colored ( Read more... )

ok, within the last fifteen minutes i sat down and commented on every interesting post that was on my friends page. no more whining about how no one posts comments. you know who you are ( Read more... )

so much stuff is not going right at this moment and i'm getting ulcers because of it. i'm not a patient person and i don't have time to wait for everything to just work itself out. so i've always been incredibly lazy and always late and just a total slacker, but it's gotten worse. i don't care about doing anything. especially going to school. but ( Read more... )

so i got a call last night from a girl from high school that i hardly know telling me that wayne palmer over dosed and died. i know who he is, but he and i never so much as said hello to each other so i wasn't too sure how to respond to the call. i mean, it's always sad when a person dies, but when you didn't know the person at all it's hard to ( Read more... )