May 16, 2004 23:13
party shmarty. everybody just come to my house all the time whenever you feel free. i worked for a million hours today and now i am so utterly exhausted that i am fighting to stay awake. i don't want to go to sleep because i always feel like while i'm sleeping something really cool will happen and i will miss it. plus i'm lonely. i really miss david. i miss coming home to him and touching his belly. and i know this is my fault and if i really wanted i could have it all back, but i don't want to spend the rest of my life wondering what else is out there. and i don't want to be married at eighteen. oh, but i loved him so damn much.
i really love danita. she is such a wonderful person to me. she's real. just like JLo.
don't be fooled by my prada,
i'm still sara from watauga.
i think i'm delirious.