i think my life is boring because nothing is wrong ( Read more... )

all that bullshit about me being excited to have kids has now vanished because of the state that i am in.

oh  my god. wishes do come true.

i want someone to watch two weeks notice or fool's gold with. :(

i feel so sick.
i want to throw up.
i want to implode.
i want to not be in a house where he stepped in.

i don't want to be in the room we played cards in.
i hurt so much inside.
nothing feels good.
nothing feels good

no one could make me happy.
no one could change the way i feel.
i just want tto sulk. and cry.
and sit doing nothing.

i have never wanted to ( Read more... )

 the endddddddd ( Read more... )

in one day, colin and i decided that we'd have an open relationship once he left.
then, during the departed, he asked me to marry him. and i laughed and said no.
because he's an asshole and that's bullshit.
i ate ravioli tonight.
sometimes i feel other people's wants are just coverups for the shit they are. 
i won't name names.
i'm doing well in school. ( Read more... )

so.  i am so depressing.
i can't stop crying.
i tear now. not okay.
it'll go away. and just make it seem like i have a runny nose.
i'm not really here. 
like, what i'm feeling right now isn't awful.
but anyone with loved ones around should never feel like this.

i miss my parents.
mostly my dad.
he has a cold.
he never gets sick.
i'm such a baby. daddy's ( Read more... )

i like cereal.

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