Towards the end of 2012, I think I've gone down paths I never thought I would have taken. And I've forgotten about this space, I've forgotten how to write about the changes that are happening in my life, about the people who leave and the new people who become a part of my life ( Read more... )

The first time i came out to my mother she was in denial. She could not believe that her sweet daughter could love let alone make love to another girl. I was seventeen and had survived a bout of failed heterosexual relationships. I liked them, the boys, but felt no physical attraction to them. Hence I lost my first kiss to a girl - my classmate who ( Read more... )

Yet again, my ears itch to hear the tap tap tapping of the keyboard going away as if as a sign of eloquence. Or as a sign of my thoughts finally given weight and not exist as mere thought vapours that ultimately get lost in the cloud of well, non-existence. Let's see if this post gets anywhere near coherence. To begin, I think the past few weeks ( Read more... )

i don't understand. yes i don't understand. but then help me understand. 

I think as of right now, I just have to be grateful for and contented with how she makes me happy. I'm grateful for the way she makes me laugh, even if there is and never will be a name to it.

i hope you're not just playing with my heart. 

The week gearing up to convocation was just insane because I thought I was going to just die at the sight of an old friend and lover who are strangers to me now. But somehow, I managed to summon a massive load of courage to be there. In fact, I didn't even think much about those who don't matter when the day came. I saw the two of them walk past me ( Read more... )

Everytime I open up Livejournal because my fingers have this feeling of wanting to type away on these keypads I find myself staring at the blank screen with a writer's block. Then I start to peruse my friends' pages ... and catch up on their intimate lives that don't get published on their faces when we meet for coffee to talk. Somehow this cyber ( Read more... )

Just something I wrote 2 years ago -

"Grant the world Mercy
“We sent thee not, but as mercy to all”.
- God.
As I sit here trying to think about what to say about our beloved Prophet Muhammad, or what mercy even means in this revelation from God, I come to an end. But I should begin to think about Mercy. Mercy has two meanings, at least according to a ( Read more... )

I haven't been here for quite awhile and realized how much of an emotional outpouring lj is for.