Last night i started reading through my old livejournal entries. Isaiah mentioned looking through the ones from when we were first friends, and it made me curious. So i looked ( Read more... )

I don't even know anymore what i'm doing or why i'm doing it or if i'm happy or who i'm doing anything for. I need to de-complicate the situation but doing that is complicated in and of itself. Everything I do creates drama, even inaction. I feel like a too thinly stretched piece of bubble gum. I'll either explode or deflate but probably leave ( Read more... )

It's amazing how differently two people can deal with change. Ian is moving out while I'm in NJ. I left for NJ yesterday ( Read more... )

I don't think it's entirely appropriate to post everything that's been going on with me ( Read more... )

I feel fucking exhausted. Getting back into the routine of work, plus doing artwork, working out, and trying desperately to have a sex life is... well, fucking exhausting ( Read more... )

Usually I'm really happy to come home to Tucson after a long trip away. This time, things felt different. I was excited and happy at first, to see Ian and the kitties. And I'm happy to be back to my routine ( Read more... )

Ian left earlier today and i'm feeling very bored and restless. In the past, my vacation to NJ has been the beginning of the end of most of my relationships. I'll get some distance and see all the bad between us that I had been trying to ignore reveal itself because of the good company I see here. I remember what it's like to have fun and be ( Read more... )

I'm feeling restless. Last night, i took out a giant container of that awful ice cream with the fake sugar and gorged myself on it. Now i'm feeling a sick and a little disappointed in myself today. My relationship with food is like a power struggle with an unruly teenager. It's more than feeling unhealthy or bloated; after i binge, I feel like ( Read more... )

I should be doing my conference notes! So here's a quick link to my health & fitness blog i have FINALLY started ( Read more... )

Last night was graduation. I'm excited for it to be summer, to be able to relax and sleep in and focus on myself again, but this was a very emotional graduation for me. The school won't be the same without this graduating class. They were freshman when i started-- they are my first "cycle", and I'm really close with a lot of them. I go climbing ( Read more... )