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[samsara]

I'm feeling restless. Last night, i took out a giant container of that awful ice cream with the fake sugar and gorged myself on it. Now i'm feeling a sick and a little disappointed in myself today. My relationship with food is like a power struggle with an unruly teenager. It's more than feeling unhealthy or bloated; after i binge, I feel like

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[ultra_hush]

Didn't you just make an entry on your health blog about this

[samsara]

Hahah, I did! I tried my best to get back on a normal track today and not freak out too badly. I just felt sick. It makes me sort of hate myself in a way

[ultra_hush]

Well, I'm envious for all the time you have to do good things for your body! I'm super busy, yeah, but it doesn't leave me a lot of time to squeeze in exercise. I need to get creative :)

And no problem about the Ian thing, of course. Mike and I had a really rocky start, and it's certainly been one of those situations that has allowed us to grow together, and continues to get better and better. I can't wait for you to meet him, either! I just got back from a Michigan trip, and had a minor freak out about how all of my friends seem to be so far away, and how they have never met the most important person in my life, and maybe never will. I'm sure you have to deal with that, having part of yourself in New Jersey. It's rough!

That post you made about not freaking out really helped me, actually. I'm definitely the overcompensatory type, and have done several "fasts" before after a rough day. It's certainly made me relax about my choices on my trip this last week!