I wish just once I could sit here and post something uplifting but it won't be today ( Read more... )

As I sit here I still find myself in the downward spiral that has been my life for some time now. There have been a few "ups" as the year has come closer to an end but much like every other time in my life the price of every "up" is several more "downs ( Read more... )

My hubby brought home fast food ALL weekend. I have such a hard time saying no. I wish I could come up with a sure fire way to not give into that crap. Tomorrow once I can get the MS pain under control I am going to see if I can do a little bit of exercise right when I wake up. There is just so much stress in this house right now and I am so lonely ( Read more... )

One year ago I came home from the gym with an asssesment portfolio that said I was at 18% body fat. I guess that is in the perfect range and suggested for athletes. Now I sit here today getting my ass kicked by MS and food. I have 150 pounds to drop to get back to that and I am wondering if it is a pipe dream. I am even too depressed to cry ( Read more... )

Well, I found myself doing okay until about 2pm then my whole day when to hell. I never di dfind a buddy. I am going to try again tomorrow. I have my pics to look at, all the motivations and now desperation ( Read more... )

I sit here again and find myself lost in the madness that is my life. I never thought I would have to win this battle again. I won the god damn war - so I thought. I am here eating my "last meal" before I try to make it 5 days without anything but low cal/no cal liquids. I had gastric bypass in Dec of 2001 and in 17 months I went from 423 pounds ( Read more... )