i'm so sick of living. maybe not living...just living here. all i do is cause pain and confussion to all who surround me. i'm on an island that is surrounded by death and despair...i have visited this island many times in the past, but i was smart enought to build strong enough bridges to return to stable land...i have been careless this time and ( Read more... )

sometimes i want to go back and delete entries because i am overtaken by guilt. i will refrain though...because if they were spoken words they would do there dammage...and i like i do so many time would not be able to take them back...just appologize and hope for forgiveness for all involved people. i suddenly realize how rude i must appear to ( Read more... )

here i go again. i have a bad habbit. i tend to write in my journal only when annoyed, depressed, angry, upset, or inspired (a rarity). well i was normal and happy for a few months...or rather i kept myself busy. the last time i took enough time to sit down ,with the sole purpose of writing, was in july. well i met a guy in early august... ( Read more... )

ok...so you may have noticed i deleted about 28 journal entries. they were all pointless and unneccessary so i got rid of them. it seemed like most of the entries were either jam packed with sappiness or dull and boring and not worth reading. hopefully now i will keep better track of this thing and use it wisely.

hmmm. i like cold weather and i hate the fact that it is warm windy and dry all day when i have priorities and have to be responsible...then at about midnight it get down to thirty degrees. my new found friend darcy and i have been staying up all night just to enjoy the pretty weather...and of course talk and get to know eachother...she's a nice ( Read more... )

this has been a very sad day. a dear friend of mine...one i grew up with committed suicide...and it is killing me. i just can't understand why he would want to deprive this world of his beautiful pressence. man i get depressed...but i have never been suicidal...and it pains me to know how bad i hurt at times...and to imagine how much deeper hi pain ( Read more... )

my heart has been broken for quite a while. if you can't break a heart that is already broken...is it possible to love with one?

midnight drives ( Read more... )

i think my brain is ultra-magnetic reciever for nightmares lately ( Read more... )

"will you miss me when i burn...and will you pine here with a longing...it is longing that i feel...to be missed or to be real." -palace brothers ( Read more... )